hi zeke!

:) hi zeke, my faithful friend.

thought you’d get a kick of seeing a post dedicated to you. now i’d write you the long speech when you do get married, hahaha, so start working on it!



so we’ve set the date

we’re getting married in approximately

137 days
3305 hours
198330 minutes
11899809 seconds

yikes! apart from being suddenly crazy busy at work (him) and suddenly having to change ALL my travel plans this week (me), i am suddenly seized with the wedding panic. and when i am in a panic, i make lists. lists and lists and lists and lists within lists. 

Wedding Dinner venue

    1. decided hotel, placed a tentative hold on dates
    2. had food tasting, it went well, our fears are allayed.
    3. flowers and deco, part of the package, various options available
    4. theme, part of the package, various options available
    5. rooms for overseas guests and wedding parties, acceptable rates
    6. tables, decided, allocated to parents
    7. wedding invites, to handmake or go with stock?


    1. have to discuss if elder can marry us in hotel
    2. marriage counselling, to be arranged
    3. flowers and deco, is there a package?
    4. music, to talk to friends to help out
    5. PA system & rehearsal, to confirm with hotel
    6. hymns, to select 4? is that too many?
    7. wedding verse, to pray about it

workout plan

    1. gym membership vs home gym? we bought a bench press (for him) and a cross trainer (for me)
    2. gym regime, HAHAHA
    3. shoes, because i need motivation. (bought the Adidas  adizero feather)

Wedding Dress

  1. To go with a package or to tailor? the package is inexpensive, but the dresses doesnt hit the spot. to tailor a dress is to be charged an exorbitant fee because its a wedding dress, when in fact the design i want is a pretty straight forward gown. anyone with a gown tailor to recommend?
  2. designs, dont get me started. how does one consolidate 26 years of planning and mind changing?
  3. material, to put aside time with mum to hit the fabric shops
  4. veil, i never thought there was so much thought that went into it!! omg, elbow or fingertip? mantilla, tulle or full lace? trimming or no? buy online or tailor or use what they have? i actually have this crazy idea to keep my wedding veil, so my daughter (if i do have a daughter) can use it for her wedding if she wishes. a veil is much easier to keep than a dress

Urgh, just talking about the wedding dress puts me in a funk.

how wonderful

how wonderful to wake up early to the sound of the rain, realise that you still have half an hour snooze time to go and curl back into the duvet. and the dogs hear the russling of the sheets so they come up and press themselves against your back, and tummy, and one more with her head just under your hands.

ah, its a good day.

post wedding hair

as many near and dear friends know, denn likes me with long(er) hair. i however, would like my hair as short as possible, without looking like a recruit. actually i think he likes my hair short too, because he usually compliments a hair cut.

so we have struck a compromise. i will grow out my hair for the wedding so he can get the photographs he wants, and there after, i can do whatever i want to my hair. (when he says this to me, his eyes involuntarily squeeze shut.)

so, in order to give him some semblance of mental preparation, this is what i intend to do:

let the record show.

the most beautiful catan board i have ever seen

i love these fancy boardgames, i do. and everytime people come over to play i try and tell them that Settlers of Catan is the one game they MUST play, because it really is one of the best– and my all time favourite.

recently we’ve got the faber crew started on Catan– and Denn and i are mighty glad to have more players who play to win, rather than build alliances.

anyway, this is the most beautiful catan board i have ever seen. i am not sure if we can still order it ($300 USD yo!); but it is lovely. read the production process here.

maybe we can build our own catan board one day, huh, cais and darr?? i’m not sure how handy the other 2 are.. but i’m sure they can do some sand-papering etc.

i absolutely love it.

it’s the Microsoft Natural Ergonomic Keyboard 4000.

so today dennis drags me out of the house to buy this crazy keyboard for his home office. let me show you what it looks like:

it’s the Microsoft Natural Ergonomic Keyboard 4000.

what a mouthful. anyway i am writing this post to test it out and see if i would like one.

here’s what microsoft had to say about it :”Given the time you spend with your hands on a keyboard, investing in the newest addition to Microsoft’s best-selling line of ergonomic keyboards can pay dividends in greater comfort. According to some studies, ergonomic keyboard designs, such as the Microsoft Natural line, have been associated with significant reduction of carpal tunnel syndrome symptoms. Rest your wrists against the plush palm rest in a relaxed, natural angle with this keyboard’s curved key bed, ergonomic arc, and reversed slope.  Apart from comfort and support, enjoy quick, customizable way to reach files, folders, and web pages with handy hot keys. For close-in tasks, use the Zoom Slider, located in the middle of the keyboard, to zoom in and out with the touch of a finger.”

it is actually quite cool lah, with the zoom function and the curvature of the keyboard. i particularly like the “back/forward” keys which allows you to go back for pages on the web. and the base of the keyboard has some sponge-like cushiom that reduces the pressure on your hands. but it looks like an awful spaceship– and it takes up too much space– in my opinion. i dont like the split qwerty part. mayne its cos i didnt learn to type the proper way so i dont use all 10 fingers to type.

my own logitec keyboard is pink, as is my USB hub. i also have a pink razer mouse, courtesy of my friend, clare-bear.

and for some strange reason, we had alot of trouble finding this Microsoft Natural Ergonomic Keyboard 4000. the shop we eventually found it at was saying how this is the classic ergo keyboard, and its true not many shops carry it.

ok! i just wanted to take the spaceship for a ride. not bad!

feeling small

i love rainy days, denn always gets a little tickled by my ability to smell rain coming. i love it– rainy days are days where the views from your window demand you stop work for a minute and stare out.

but today i feel a little small– not in the petty sort of way, but the insignificant sort of way.

perhaps this is the time to wake up from this stupor of the bubble i’ve created around myself “because i run my own biz, i’m too busy to socialise”– but  i really dunno how to deal with less than deep conversations. it frustrates me. its frustrating that it frustrates me, so i cut conversations short. its not that i cant make small talk, in fact, i love my biz friends– clients, staff, customers– i like the fun conversations we have, i make it a point to be sincere with them; and there’s no point lying because lying catches you in a bind. you never forget the truth; but you forget the tales you spin, so its easier that way.

dealing with a particular group of people always puts in this funk, and while we stopped contact with them a while back-; and i want to help out cos i particularly like this particular client– but i really had bad brushes with the rest of the group. and really, i dont speak their lingo; i dont share their interests.

then i look inwards, do i do the same? i’d hate to know i make others feel they’re not good enough, or cool enough, or knowledgeable enough, or rich enough, or fun enough to hang with me. i’m not trying to say i’m all that, but that’s certainly the insecurities i have felt dealing with different people.  maybe its time i woke up and see how i subconciously make others feel small.

2012 is a year for sincerity. lets go C.