hi melissa

hey, i sent you an email.

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the 5 year chasm

over the moon about something; but
i cannot say; and will not say
because hushhush; it makes me overbrim with joy

cheers,
toujour; and to forgotten songs (its ok)
the special time of day that i will (in a matter of days) wake up for

i have missed you so.

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endings and begininings

for those of you who got the sms, you’d know. :)

tonight, there is a certain freedom in the air;
a sudden clarity of mind,
a crazy urge to spin myself around and
hug my arms around me.

a relief; a fire in the eye.

i dont need shania twain’s magic boots
and i no longer need to prove anything to anyone
it doesn’t matter what you think, the shackles fell off
and this heart soars.

a peace; a quiet.
and He says to me, “welcome home”.

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if love is blind; tiffany

People say that you’re no good for me
People say it constantly
I hear it said so much
I repeat it in my sleep

Maybe I am just a fool for you
Maybe you’re no angel too
But all that talk is cheap
When I’m alone with you

If love is blind
I’ll find my way with you
Cause I can’t see myself
Not in love with you
If love is blind
I’ll find my way with you

All the world is crazy anyway
What’s it matter what they say
If I’m the one that’s wrong
Then let it be my mistake

If love is blind
I’ll find my way with you
Cause I can’t see myself
Not in love with you

If love is blind
I’ll find my way with you

You wouldn’t be with me tonight
If I didn’t feel that I was right
What will it matter
anyhow a hundred
Years from now

If love is blind
I’ll find my way with you
Cause I can’t see myself
I’m not in love with you
If love is blind
I’ll find my way with you

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these terrible days.

it would be two weeks from the day tomorrow.

i wouldnt take it back
but i sure wish it were more.
everything’s at a standstill;
please just let me get through tomorrow without drama.

it would be another 2 weeks on thursday;
but i think you’ve forgotten.
i haven’t.

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song; please release me; ENGELBERT HUMPERDINCK

Please release me, let me go
For I don’t love you anymore
To waste our lives would be a sin
Release me and let me love again

I have found a new love, dear
And I will always want her near
Her lips are warm while yours are cold
Release me, my darling, let me go

(Please release me, let me go)
For I don’t love you anymore
(To waste my life would be a sin)
So release me and let me love again

Please release me, can’t you see
You’d be a fool to cling to me
To live a lie would bring us pain
So release me and let me love again
(Let me love, let me love)

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what’s your deal?

in the first place, i shouldn’t have to explain myself
owing the fact that this is my space;
and i dont quite care if you understand what i am writing
simply because that is how it was intended.

friends, and people close by would understand;
and seeing how this is a very public blog
refering to the hufflepuff, or the artist, or the boy (not boyscout)
is pretty much the only way to go.

but you’d find, if you ask me, and if you’re close enough,
i’ll tell you. please stop guessing who they are; and spreading
such weird vile rumours.

gee whiz people we’re not that young, for most of us.
stop behaving like 6 year olds.

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goodnight baby

my first steps are shaky, and exhilarating.
its sunday night and i am winding down for bed, tired out
but pleased, with “5 loaves & 2 fishes” playing by my head
and the room dim but for the reading lamp i keep beside my bed.

been a long week, and one that i’ve truly enjoyed–
listening, speaking out, my 3 quad pants, and hugs in the corridors
having a school clique of babes that has been there
and where i am at, and can share jogging anecdotes.

culminated with the king and i, at the esplanade with the artist
and hairspray with the usual peepos.
late nights @ various parks
bible study & finding my way back to church.

watching borne midweek
surprise meeting with adriel on the other side of the door
its been a good week, all in all.

tired.

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stuff

Your PMS Disaster Level: EXTREME!

You’re PMS is horrific and totally freaky. You should be locked away once a month… with a ton of chocolate cake!

Are You a PMS Disaster?

You Are Lara Croft

“Everything lost is meant to be found.”

What Superheroine Are You?

Your Dosha is Vata

Creative and restless, you take in all of life’s pleasures (maybe a little too much!). You’re quick witted and very talkative, but you also tend to have a spotty memory. You tend to get very into ideas, people, and lifestyles… but only for a short time. It’s difficult to hold your attention, and you sometimes feel with what life has to offer. With friends: You are very uncomfortable in new situations or with new peopleIn love: You fall in and out of love very easilyTo achieve more balance: Live in a warm climate and spend some quiet time in nature

What’s Your Dosha?

Your Makeup Look Is

Pale Lips with Big Eyes A little classic, a little retro – you look fantastic in this high fashion look.

What’s Your Signature Makeup Look?

Your Inner Color is Yellow

Your Personality: Life’s too short not to have fun. Your bright energy brings joy and laughter to those around you.You in Love: A total flirt, you need a lot of freedom to play. But you’ll be loyal to that one person who makes you feel safe.Your Career: You love variety in a job, and you probably won’t stick with one career. You would make a great professor, writer, or actor.

What’s Your Inner Color?

Your Kissing Purity Score: 26% Pure

You’re not one to kiss and tell…But word is, you kiss pretty well.

Kissing Purity Test

Your Scent is Pumpkin Pie

Warm, comforting, and a bit old fashioned You’ve got what men want – believe it or not!

What’s Your Girl Smell?

You Are A Fig Tree

You are very independent and strong minded. A hard worker when you want to be, you play hard too. You are honest and loyal. You hate contradiction or arguments. You love life, and you live for your friends, children, and animals. A great sense of humor, artistic talent, and intelligence are all gifts you possess.

What’s Your Celtic Horoscope?

Your Inner Pop Princess Is Hilary Duff

“I’m shedding Shedding every color Trying to find a pigment of truth Beneath my skin”You’re sweet and cute, but a little more complex than that.

Who’s Your Inner Pop Princess?

You Would Be a Pet Bird

You’re intelligent and witty, yet surprisingly low maintenance. You charm people easily, and they usually love you a lot more than you love them. You resent anyone who tries to own or control you. You refuse to be fenced in.Why you would make a great pet: You’re very smart and entertainingWhy you would make a bad pet: You’re not interested in being anyone’s pet!What you would love about being a bird: Flying, obviouslyWhat you would hate about being a bird: Being caged

What Kind of Pet Would You Be?

What Your Bathroom Habits Say About You

You are a very considerate person, but that doesn’t mean you let people walk all over you.You spend a lot on clothes, and you tend to be a very dresser. However, it’s hard for you to throw away trendy clothes when they go out of style.You have the perfect blend of confidence and class. You’re proud of who you are – but you don’t broadcast it.In relationships, you tend to be very romantic and demanding. You’ll treat your partner like gold, but you expect a lot in return.

What Do Your Bathroom Habits Say About You?

Your Passion is Red!

You’ve got that spark – a good dose of intensity, power, and determination. You do whatever you want in life … to hell with what anyone thinks! With so many interests and loves, you’re always running around doing something new. You have fire in your eyes, and it shows. Bet you’re even wearing something red!

What Type of Passionate Woman Are You?

You Are Cherry Kiss Lip Gloss

You’re a total girly girl who’s every guy is sweet on. You take pleasure in the simple things in life, from cute t-shirts to stuffed animals.Any guy needs to match your romantic idealism to win your heart, which is why few have. No wonder Cherry your signature flavor. It’s delicious, sugary, and fun – like you!

What Flavor Lip Gloss Are You?

Your Aura is Violet

Idealistic and thoughtful, you have the mind and ideas to change the world. And you have the charisma of a great leader, even if you don’t always use it!The purpose of your life: saying truths that other people dare not say Famous purples include: Mahatma Gandhi, Martin Luther King, Jr., Susan B. Anthony Careers for you to try: Political Activist, Inventor, Life Coach

What Color Is Your Aura?

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urgh

i was reading through the comments,
and someone stuck me a link to a jpg file
and when i opened it, it was a picture of me and the boyscout.

wtf.

so i searched through the archives and found the pics.
http://faeriedances.diaryland.com/060307_49.html
and read through those blog entries.

again, wtf.
every two steps i take i’m shoved 3 steps behind.

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